Patience, a Strange Inspiration

2020 brought an abrupt intensification of polarized ideas in creative work. Many concepts had to be postponed, not always because they lacked value, but because of time constraints, budget limitations, or simply the absence of the right technical knowledge. Some ideas felt too ambitious, others unrealizable. In hindsight, that pause became useful.

One of the unexpected lessons of that period was patience: patience to let ideas mature, to learn the necessary tools, and to find viable ways to approach projects that once felt out of reach. On my notebook where I write all the “One Day I’ll do this Project” finally became a place for action rather than intention.

Among those ideas were several post-production experiments centered on symmetry. What began as casual curiosity slowly turned into obsession. Months of studying, analyzing references, and testing concepts eventually led to a breaking point, enough preparation to start experimenting.

A key reference during this process was Zdzisław Beksiński. His raw, visceral vision of reality blurs the boundary between dreams and life, creating worlds that are unsettling yet strangely relatable. Particularly compelling (at least for me) is his refusal to explain his work. Meaning is not guided or imposed; interpretation is entirely the viewer’s responsibility. That silent contract between artwork and observer is both demanding and liberating.

The constant oscillation between dream and reality, the tension between faded and saturated colors, and the distortion of pain and pleasure became central challenges to explore visually. Translating those sensations into moving images was about understanding the emotional mechanics behind them.

An interesting realization during this process was discovering how many limitations are self-imposed rather than rooted in reality. Ideas are often discarded too quickly, assumed to be “impossible” before being properly examined. With a bit of distance and perspective, many of them turn out to be achievable after all. And even when they are not, the attempt itself becomes valuable, failure, in that sense, is also a teacher.

What follows are some of those experiments/studies born from patience, repetition, and the willingness to let ideas evolve until they find their own form, and some of them my personal tribute to Zdzisław Beksiński